finaly started my blog

Well folks , this is my first posting. I have been thinking of writing a blog for such a long time but kept putting it off. You see I am a sufferer of one of the worst inflictions man can have, Procrastination. To anyone that may read this, you will be thinking I am just a lazy bastard. Well that’s true to a point, but I am just really stuck in a rut and find it almost impossible to escape from this life of unemployment. (There just aren’t any jobs out there for a single guy in his forties)  However, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. On the 5^th of May I am going to an assessment for a web design course and if I get through I should be starting on the 9^th, also I have an interview (also on the 9^th of May) for college were I hope to do illustration or graphic design. At the moment I am supposed to be working on my portfolio, but to tell you the truth I am finding it hard going. Its not that the artwork I am trying to do is complicated, it’s just, well, to tell you the truth, I’m finding it hard to get motivated. I know I can do the work, but I’m never happy with my own art. It’s strange really, because I went back to college 2 years ago and did an art course in BCFE http://www.bcfe.ie (fantastic college and also were the animation school is. Last year there were four Oscar nominations for past students of this college.) and loved everyone’s art but my own. Although I know my work was up to scartch. I think with me and art, its knowing how to finish a peace. I cant post anything at the moment as my scanner is not working. I reinstalled widows and lost my scanner driver. Oh! I see this is getting far too long for a blogg. I do go on a bit. I will post more tomorrow.